Avoiding Society Sickness

I don't know if anyone else noticed

but I do avoid talking to the people I know,

I avoid a reunion,

Avoid talking and avoid entertainment,

I am personally dedicated my self with my work,

My only gate away is writing and listening to music.

Except from my family members( I lived with them and if I do

neglect my family too, then I have a major issue here)

and also my boyfriend.

Of course we text each other like 24/7

and it's impossible to avoid him

He'll be knocking at my door if I'm not replying his text or

answering his call.

Also my co-workers here,

I need to interact with them

about working matters

considering recently we had a finance and security problem here

at work place.

What I mean by me avoiding society,

I hate make an eye contact with stranger,

It's not that I'm shy,

I just hate everyone else/strangers.

I am not good at making a new friends before,

and now it got worst.

I hate people,

I just hate society,

I don't do Facebook anymore,

I keep getting annoyed by people,

instead of me letting the hate grows,

I shut my self from other people,

strangers to be exact.

I have no attention to make friends or whatever.

Maybe I'm mentally tired

Or physically exhausted.

I work everyday.

I just loved making money.

But Money can't be a listener.

I am afraid I will lose myself to silent.

I need to be open up to new things

I'm afraid of trying something new.

It's okay to be old fashion,

but I still need a changes in life.

Yes,

something new,

Fresh

and worth everything.

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I am :)