UNDERSTANDING

You hold the answers deep within your own mind.

Consciously, you've forgotten it.

That's the way the human mind works.

Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us

to entertain, we reject it.

We erase it from our memories.

But the imprint is always there.

The pain that grips you

The fear that binds you

Releases life in me

In our mutual

Shame we idolize

To blind them from the truth

That finds a way from who we are

Please don't be afraid

When the darkness fades away

The dawn will break the silence

Screaming in our hearts

My love for you still grows

This I do for you

Before I try to fight the truth my final time

"We're supposed to try and be real.

And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."

Lying beside you

Listening to you breathe

The life that flows inside of you

Burns inside of me

Hold and speak to me

Of love without a sound

Tell me you will live through this

And I will die for you

Cast me not away

Say you'll be with me

For I know I cannot

Bear it all alone

"You're not alone, honey."

"Never... Never."

"But the imprint is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten."

Define Care

I would like to say “I care for you” instead using “I Love you”. Why? Because care is more tender and sound honest to me. I’ve heard too many people used the word LOVE and lied, well then for me the meaning of LOVE is already polluted and never felt true any more.

Care is a feeling that not only stands for liking or loving someone, but truly concern and warms a heart. We care for someone, we want them to be happy, we never are selfish, we never lied and we never disappointed if the love we felt is never be reply. We care for them for the best and the worst, we never pushed them apart neither push them afar.

If I met someone that I really cared of, I will looked at him from distance, wondering if he is doing okay, are the day going well, or maybe if there is something bothered him that caused those wrinkles on his forehead shows up. I would like to see him hanging out with his friends, talk and laughing about something funny, eat the food that he likes and breathe the air easily.

I would like the person that I care to be free and happy. I like to be happy just to know that I am not selfish, I am not forcing or doing anything that annoyed him. It doesn't matter if he did not feel the same way towards me; it’s okay because a true feeling is when we do what our heart desired.

be mine :)