Monday, June 10, 2013

New York on Islam

It's amazing how
other's works inspiring and motivating us
through my journey on Youtube media.

It's unfair for me not to share
any good things to all my readers,
so I hope you'll take a moment and watch this video.

May peace came upon everyone of us. :)

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Maturity by Ann Landers

Maturity is many things. It is the ability to base a judgment on the big picture, the long haul.
It means being able to resist the urge for immediate gratification and opt for the course of action that will pay off later.
One of the characteristics of the young is “I want it now.”
Grown-up people can wait.
Maturity is perseverance–the ability to sweat out a project or a situation, in spite of heavy opposition and discouraging setbacks, and stick with it until it is finished.
The adult who is constantly changing friends and changing mates is immature. He/she cannot stick it out because he/she has not grown up.
Maturity is the ability to control anger and settle differences without violence or destruction. The mature person can face unpleasantness, frustration, discomfort and defeat without collapsing or complaining. He/she knows he cannot have everything his/her own way every time. He/she is able to defer to circumstances, to other people-and to time. He/she knows when to compromise and is not too proud to do so.
Maturity is humility. It is being big enough to say, “I was wrong.” And, when he/she is right, the mature person need not experience the satisfaction of saying, “I told you so.”
Maturity is the ability to live up to your responsibilities, and this means being dependable. It means keeping your word. Dependability is the hallmark of integrity. Do you mean what you say-and do you say what you mean? Unfortunately, the world is filled with people who cannot be counted on. When you need them most, they are among the missing. They never seem to come through in the clutches. They break promises and substitute alibis for performance. They show up late or not at all. They are confused and disorganized. Their lives are a chaotic maze of broken promises, former friends, unfinished business and good intentions that somehow never materialize. They are always a day late and a dollar short.
Maturity is the ability to make a decision and stand by it. Immature people spend their lives exploring endless possibilities and then doing nothing. Action requires courage. Without courage, little is accomplished.
Maturity is the ability to harness your abilities and your energies and do more than is expected. The mature person refuses to settle for mediocrity. He/she would rather aim high and miss the mark than low-and make it.
Maturity is the art of living in peace with that which cannot be changed, the courage to change that which should be changed, no matter what it takes, and the wisdom to know the difference.

I've Learned

I've learned-
that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.

I’ve learned-
that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned-
that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I’ve learned-
that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.

I’ve learned-
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned-
that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.

I’ve learned-
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned-
that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned-
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned-
that you can keep going long after you can’t.

I’ve learned-
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned-
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I’ve learned-
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I’ve learned-
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I’ve learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I’ve learned-
that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned-
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned-
that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I’ve learned-
that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological.

I’ve learned-
that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned-
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned-
that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

I’ve learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned-
that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned-
that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned-
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I’ve learned-
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned-
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned-
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned-
that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.

I’ve learned-
that people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

By Omer B. Washington

The Important things in life

A philosophy professor stood before his class with some items on the table in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about 2 inches in diameter.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous “Yes.”

Now,” said the professor, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things – your family, your partner, your health, your children – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter – like your job, your house, your car.
The sand is everything else. The small stuff.”
“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued “there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal.
Take care of the rocks first – the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Finger Crossed

It's saturday,
and by upcoming monday.
I'll be hearing news about my job to be
at Sipitang.
I've been going back and forth
settling my interview and many more about the job.
Well, I've got support from few of the workers at the company 
I've been interviewing with,
and the meeting between me and the branch manager was successful.
I am waiting for the confirmation about my salary
and when I can start.

I've never been there.
I'm sabahan, shame on me

About the job,
I won't explain further
but the company I will be working with,
involved with SAMUR project
it's Sabah Ammonia Urea plant project
that in process to be built at Sipitang.
It's a big project,
and I am so excited to be a part of it.
Our company is expert on scaffolding
and I'll be working on the office located on the site,
I've heard everyone talking about
it will be hot and I'll be exposed to sunray 
but whatever,
I am Civil Engineering Diploma holder,
Of course I won't be expecting
to do an easy work.
Challenge accepted!

Wish me LUCK!

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Urban Legend: Pinky Promise

"Supposedly, the Pinky Promise began back in the Edo Period as a gesture of devotion that prostitutes would make with their favorite customers. The “cutting” of the pinky signified the women severing her own finger as a sign of eternal affection for her partner, essentially saying that she loves him enough to commit shinju, or ritual lovers’ suicide with him." 

Sad how promises always left undone

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Both sides that never the same

You wish that you knew,
but truly,
You only knew half of it,
and the other half,
It's totally different.

I am in the mood of telling you my story,
About a man,
with two side of him. (who doesn't)
But normally,
you can guess the other side of human personality
when he/she revealing the first half.
It's easy to noticed IF he's being himself.
that's another story.

A man,
I knew to be completely matured and responsible,
He score 10/10 when first time we met.
Always the first impression will lead the other way right?
While he's being honest and open up to me,
I was blinded by his charming,
I am attracted by his attitude
and I am positive that he have a great soul.
Those words and stories,
sounds too good to be true,
I believe in him.

And the other half of him started to show up.
It's completely a shocking situation that I've ever been through,
But I am a very hardcore women.
I knew I was fooled but I don't breakdown.
I try to keep up with his other side,
but somehow it goes deeper and darker.
You see,
From being amazed it went to sympathy.
Of course a bit of hateful and regret somewhere,
but I made it through.
One will never get somewhere with revenge etc.
I let go.

Let go is easy,
but the memoir remains.
It's like a scar of war.
It reminds you of the enemy and hardship that you've been through.
It's a lesson in life.
Cliche how people say the scar will never gone with bad meanings,
even the scar's still there,
It won't hurt you as long as it remain as a scar.
People may see you differently with the scar,
You may look ugly or whatever harsh word it might be,
But every scar has it's own story.
It's a treasure that keeps you going.
You may go forward or backwards,
it's your choice. 

Lesson learned.
First impression is somehow can be manipulative,
A person specifically is always manipulative.
You think you know them,
But think again.

I believe in Karma. :)

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

As You Are

The kids in our house!

Something weird with the hair duh...

This is smile according to this little kid

Too happy with only bread..:)

The Inevitable

I am obsessed about
the phrase that
" There is no such thing as coincidence in this world,  there just inevitable"

You see,
Every man and every tragedy we encountered every moment
is inevitable.
They may exist in our live temporarily,
but they are destined to give such an impact no matter how big or small it is.

 I mean the whole thing that God created or written to us,
we must treasure every bit of their existence.
They may leave us a deep despair or greatest honorable moment,
but everything is inevitable.

They say we could change our path,
But I say,
I could say I would,
but the whole truth is lies ahead
far from our knowledge.
Only God know.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Personal Choose : Best Sad Movie Ever

While we've been waiting for the 
result of PRU13,
I want to share the saddest movie ever.
Based on my opinion.
Here we go...

Please noted that I will list 2 of my all time favourite.

Sad Movie : Korean

It's a melodramatic film
with 4 plot of story in it.
The one that makes me cry the most,
Is the story between the mother and her son.

Will I tell you more about this movie?
But believe me,
This movie will make your eyes teary.
I cried and pretend that I am not

Here comes the other one,

P.S I Love You : English
Don't tell me you've never watched this must see movie??

“Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will be there for you forever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after we're gone.” 
― Cecelia AhernP.S. I Love You

It's a must watch movie
if you in the mood to get teary and caught in the
emotional of love and life.

Have fun watching!

Saturday, May 4, 2013


In anything I do,
I wish for tranquility and peace.
For me, the greatest problem of all
is the burden you let hanging on your shoulder
and filling your mind and every thought.
That is a big problem.
You would like to stop thinking,
remembering and rewinding the same negative energy,
but you can't.
Sometimes I can't. I let this burden grow bigger
and I end up loss appetite, lack of sleep and over thinking.
When I show sign of all the above,
a laughter will be made up,
a fake smile will cover it up.
Everything will not be the same as it ever anymore.
You know what I am talking about right?
When you keep a problem to yourself,
you start thinking backwards and you just can't find a way out.
You try to distract your mind to other things
that will cheer you up,
but the happiness is temporary.
You'll end up start to think about the problem again
and the problematic routine will start all over again.
It takes me a week at least
to get over something that upset me.
After a week,
I usually feel like a newborn baby,
I feel energetic and finally found my inner peace.
But the past week,
It's a hell in your mind and soul.
Your mind wander everywhere,
You can't focused and distracted every time.
Love is not everything that we need,
We need tranquility.
We need to be freed from burden
that will stop you from accepting something fresh and new.

Let's find our inner peace.


A good things
means to be share with everyone
especially the one who closed to you
and meant the whole world in your life.
My family, lifetime friends and future family,
Here's for you.

Lagu-lagu medley Rock kapak by Ajek Hasan


" When does a person die? When they are shot through the chest with a pistol? No. When he suffers from an incurable disease? No. When he eats a soup made out of a poisonous mushroom? No! A person dies when they are forgotten... ”

I named everything

It's freezing in my office.
I hated air conditioner,
I hated winter (luckily Malaysia doesn't experience winter)
I hate cold places.
The fact is I easily caught cold and fever
if I am exposed to any degree of freezing's.
Anyone else might say it hot,
but I am sensitive to coldness.

Back to main point,
me and my sister bought
a balloon crocodile that can stand on it's own
with a sort-of bean support inside it.
(I don't know what it called!)
But hey,
It's green and half of my height
and you can punch it and sit on it,
It will never explode. hopefully

I decided to give it a name.
It's a crocodile,
so I named it CODY
After that,
everyone in the house called it that way.
Epic huh..
My laptop, hand phone and many other things
I can't list of,
actually have a name.
Haha~ I am sort of a name fairy
that will granted a name for everything.
My laptop,
I called it FATIMAH
Poor Fatimah,
Everytime I leave it to dust and sometimes 
I accidentally pour my drinks on top of it,
I would automatically say "sori fatimah, sori..jangan kau rusak ar...suriii"
 If anyone around,
It would be such a weird scene.

I have a fun naming every stuff that I owned.
Give away a name, and have fun!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

4 men+1 women.

Rajip (eyes closed) & Acai (Red phone guy)

sorry guys for posting your HANDSOMENESS 
here at my blog.

They are my ups and down Buddies.
The best memories is,
when we struggle through the whole month
for finishing our Civil Engineering Project,
where we didn't sleep,
they cook for me ( same menu every day)
and we almost collapse for
studying non stop for final exam.

They've been stand up for me
considering I am the only girl in the group,
They help me through everything
from studying matter to my love problems.

Our time is over,
but like any other good relationship built,
maybe the time went by,
but the memories remain.

I love them so much.

P/s : wan and rajip is still single. Anyone?

My Top 5 Anime (First ever!)

Cold day..
It's been raining since dawn and I am like,
"hell yeah I am not gonna wake up today"
But here I am sitting in front my office laptop,
and already finished my last month account report
and doing my first Top 5 Anime.

This typing and thinking things will help me warm a bit!
Hi Haaaaa~

Anyone out there
23 years old and a career woman who loves anime like me???
Please say there is.
(finger cross...searching for anime soulmate)

Here we go...
There is too many in my list,
but let me put it down until the top 5 in my list.
Including the ongoing anime and the one that already comes to an end.

Cardcaptor Sakura


Honey and Clover



One Piece

The ultimate winner of all anime
goes to ONE PIECE!

Here's a simple reason why I loved the winner,
It's easy.
When I laugh and cry watching this anime,
I know in my hearts that this anime
is destined for me to watch!
(whuut?? Lol)

Monday, April 29, 2013

Fair Play

To win or to conquer,
one must do to the very best
to accomplish whatever the heart desire.

To not lose and avoid surrender,
one must gather all the best man and best weapon,
to feel the satisfaction of winning.

To hold the ultimate winning,
Play fair.
So no one will hold grudges against your deception,
and everyone will admit your glorious victory.

Election Day, will you be fair?

I should vote..for the next PRU.

I am a Malaysian citizen,
born in 90's.

It's PRU season,
Everyone's keep talking about which side will win.
Is it Barisan Nasional?
Pakatan Rakyat?
and many more.
I can tell the heat of PRU by the view of
too many flag that been put along the road,
hang on the electric pole and many more.
By the news I've heard everyday at television
and read from the paper,
by the post from public at social networks.
Too much that you can tell,
This time will be different.

maybe because you can see more of
PKR flags than BN flags,
or maybe because I've heard almost 88%
of my friends and family talk about is PKR but not BN.
I lived in Sabah.
I not well aware about the development that BN
already made and accomplished at Sabah,
but I think Sabah are doing goods,
but still,
I admit I am lack of knowledge about this stuff,
and my judgement based on what I see,
not by what I know.

According to the law,
I am capable of voting since last year,
but I did not registered for voting,
so next PRU then I will vote for the first time in my life.

I used to think that
why should I vote?
will one vote decide the winner?
Why should I care about politics?
But then,
I realise that I am malaysian,
It's my right to vote,
to choose the leader,
I should care more about malaysian politics,
I should be a responsible citizens,
then I should vote.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Avoiding Society Sickness

I don't know if anyone else noticed
but I do avoid talking to the people I know,
I avoid a reunion,
Avoid talking and avoid entertainment,
I am personally dedicated my self with my work,
My only gate away is writing and listening to music.
Except from my family members( I lived with them and if I do
neglect my family too, then I have a major issue here)
and also my boyfriend.
Of course we text each other like 24/7
and it's impossible to avoid him
He'll be knocking at my door if I'm not replying his text or
answering his call.
Also my co-workers here,
I need to interact with them
about working matters
considering recently we had a finance and security problem here
at work place.

What I mean by me avoiding society,
I hate make an eye contact with stranger,
It's not that I'm shy,
I just hate everyone else/strangers.
I am not good at making a new friends before,
and now it got worst.
I hate people,
I just hate society,
I don't do Facebook anymore,
I keep getting annoyed by people,
instead of me letting the hate grows,
I shut my self from other people,
strangers to be exact.
I have no attention to make friends or whatever.

Maybe I'm mentally tired
Or physically exhausted.
I work everyday.
I just loved making money.
But Money can't be a listener.
I am afraid I will lose myself to silent.

I need to be open up to new things
I'm afraid of trying something new.
It's okay to be old fashion,
but I still need a changes in life.
something new,
and worth everything.

I am :)

Friday, April 19, 2013

Rest in Peace

Hey there,
I am eager to write and share my thoughts about 
recent phenomena on youtube.
It's not a good things,
so I'm not going to give them any positive response,
they do deserve it.

First of all,
about the bullying things
the class monitor being hit by his classmate for
reporting to teacher about they bringing phone to school.
The video is about a minute duration and
uploaded on youtube.
It's our malaysian students for god sake.
Push aside the nationality of boys
but they were BOYS and I believe
it define them as immature and innocent.
They still have a lot to learn.
Where do the violence comes from?
Is there anyone else should be blame other than themselves?

when i took my lunch while scrolling my friends facebook wall,
I noticed this video also uploaded in youtube
about a group of S.M.A students (girls)
which I believe from Indonesia ( correct me if I'm wrong)
they make fun about solat ( muslim's prayers)
one of the girls is wearing hijab (tudung)
and they recorded the video in classroom
and act like they were about to perform a solat
but mixed it up with Maroon 5 songs and dance!!
I just can't believe my eyes...

A few minutes ago,
I found another video uploaded on youtube.
This time also a group of student and yet again girls,
with school uniform somewhere a school from kelantan,
two of them kicking,punching and grabbing each others hair
while their skirt is pulled up high and you can see clearly
those girls thighs
God, what comes into our young generations now??
What do they have in mind?
Is school a stage to make an entertaining yet violence video?
or what?

I have two little brothers,
I am afraid of what they will become,
I am afraid of what kind of friend will they make,
I am afraid of the choice they will take.
I am afraid of young generations perception of life
how they define live? love?
Do they know tolerance and sympathy?
Do they even have heart?
RIP for intellectual and maturity.

Saturday, April 13, 2013


Imagine how your day 
can be ruined and affected terribly by others.
It's a NO NO for me
to wake up early morning and suddenly
something happen and ruined your entire day.
I won't do that to others,
so that I expect what others will do to me.

Sometimes when things like this happen,
I just need to consumed some sugar,
well they said sweet things can lessen the moody feeling
I guess that's a bit work out for me.

For those who easily annoyed like me,
we just need some sugar in life.
Take a deep breath in and breath it out,
let the problems flow out from your body through the exhalation,
and inhale those happy thoughts and fresh air.
Do not let anything burden you head and keeps you 
out of focus all day,
don't let the burden hang at the tip of your mouth
and unallowed you to smile.
Keep a happy thought and we will be alright.

But still,
It's a NO NO
to wake someone just to put him/her on a bad mood.
Please, don't.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

I'm glad to have you

I've survived the entire last week.
The whole overtime working and my convocation days.
I thought I will lost 10 years of my life span,
but hey,
I made it and I am so proud of myself.

meeting my friends from polytechnic
seems cheer my mood up.
(considering I'm working extra hour for 3 days straight before my convocation day)
I haven't see them since last year and I'm glad everyone's doing great!
I wish for everyone's prosperity and joyous adventures ahead.
and congratulation!!

hey there!

Not like the others,
 I don't take a lot of pictures during that day,
but the memories will remain unforgettable.

be safe and be happy.
Love you all.

especially for my team mate a.k.a brothers
acai, wan and rajip.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Lack of bravery

Nowadays trends,
You got email, facebook, twitter, Instagram (etc) and many more
It do connect people from all side of the world,
but from my point of view,
when people start posting they words and their intention,
posting their hopes, dreams, experienced and many more,
we lose our ability of speak,
speak to the crowd or speak directly to that person which our post meant to be.

From my experienced,
When we hate someone,
or felt unpleased or whatever unwanted feelings we have towards someone,
we post it.
rather than face it, 
instead we just post it.
Rather than you face the problems and talk to him/her to work things out,
you just post it.
If that person see the post you meant for them,
well, it can lead to war in whose typing sounds tough enough,
or whose replying the comment faster.
That's the trend of speaking now.

It's just another dark side about nowadays trend.
But fear not,
Not the trends to be blamed,
It's our personality to be blamed.
Facebook, twitter and so on can't created war, fight or jealousy,
It's the person behind it who does it all.

I' am officially a non-facebooker.

I'm deleting my facebook account.
In 14 days starting 30th march,
My account will be delete completely.

My Boyfriend ask me
why did I block him on facebook?
Actually I forgot to tell him 
my decision in quitting facebook,
He's a bit curious,
and start to questioned me like a pro detective,
It's my fault in the first place for not telling him
about my facebook,
but I don't have particular reason why,
But I do want to stop facebooking,
Just that.

consider me putting my FB on sleep mode. :)

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Everybody's changing

We do growing up
age increasing,
hair whitening,
Lose strength,
growing up is not being matured,
growing up doesn't make us right,
It doesn't make us invisible of doing wrong,
Growing up is a must,
Being matured is a choice.

A friend told me
Everybody's change,
Yes...that's true...

Here's the thing is,
when we believe that everything's changed,
 do the changed we made only happens once?
Is it once we change,
we will stay like that for eternity...?

We changed from good to bad,
but believe me,
We can also changed from being bad to good.
It's life,
If you have consciousness,
You'll think and you'll be better for good.

Changed did not occurs once,
it happens all the time as we growing older and older,
as we met various type of people,
As we involved at many incidents
we will changed
all the time.

Make sure the changed you become is worth living
and worth showing to people
how much you changed to be better.
Let's together changed to be a better us in the future.

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